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[05 May 2006|06:44pm] [ mood | excited ] so yeah. it really wierd dating bryce since its rays best friend, but things happen for a reason. its very comfy since weve known eachother for awhile. i love waking up next to him. i went to texas last weekend. it wasnt as fun as the first time. i did things i regret. but you learn from your mistakes. tomorrow is pennsylvania and im so stoked. i saw dan zito today for the first time in forever. hes such an awesome person and i swear hes one person that will never change. we talked about everyone. some of things were awesome to hear and some of things were just so sad but oh well it happens to the best of us. we had fun just talking. now im going to go to adams house for his 21st birthday also another person i havent hung out with in a year. im really excited to see all though boys. thenim going to my wifes grandmas house to party. then we leave for the airport at 7 in the morning. im rooming with 2 awesome people. i miss samantha. i havent seen her in a month comment

[21 Feb 2006|05:59pm] me and ray arent currently together. im fine this time its btter that way. theres way too much that he needs to get over. maybe we will see whats going to happen in the future but who knows. i reallt do love him and i know he cares the same for you. there are just some major issues going on. just thought ide let everyone know whats going on. i cut myself with scissors for the first time today not even my finger thought on top of my hand. how does that make sense? haha goodbye 1 comment

[19 Feb 2006|03:11pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | waking ashland - i am for you ] This week has been so har...oh so hard. not being with ray and not talking to him was the worst. he was my motivation in the morning. oh my god ive never been so depressed in my life. valentines day was great even though it wasnt spent with him. nick ronnie and sam made it amazing. i couldnt have ask for more no joke. friday came a long and i hung out with chris, dan and rachel. we went to this crazy ass party downtown. it wasnt fun at all. it totally could have been better plus i wasnt with ray. then saturday i had work and then me and lauren went and visited rays sister at work because she misses me. then me and lauren went to the mall and then chris texted me to see if i wanted to get something pierced. so heck yeah i went to inktown and got my monroe pierced. its awesome. i texted ray before i went and asked him what i should get done and he actually texted me back. i didnt atlk to him all week well duh because we were broken up. then he asked me to come to bryces which duh i did because 1. i wanted to see ray more then anything and 2. because i miss hanging out with all of them and watching their drunk asses. so me and ray did a lot of talking and we decided that hes gonna try to be a better person and that i have to support him no matter what the situation is as long as he doesnt do what he shouldnt be doing. i hope all goes well becuase we are really truely inlove and it hurts so badly to see someone go through what hes going through. but im really happy that we are together and i cant wait to see him today. we got to talk a little bit more and then everything should be peachy. school is fricken awesome i met an awesome girl named nicole. i think i get a lont with her so well because she reminds me of samantha and rachel put together. she has the same knowledge of music as samantha and we always have a blast talking about it. she knows all of the most amazing bands ever and goes on warped tour with them. shes a pretty rad person. we are now learning hair cutting in school and its pretty fun. im actually doing pretty good at it to the point where my teacher doesnt even have to correct my cuts and i can do them really quickly unlike many other people in my class. now i must clean my room because i havent done anything in the past week except for school work sleep and cry. now im happier then ever and no one...not anyone can bring me down. 1 comment

[06 Feb 2006|05:16pm] so lately its been a whole lotta school and sleep not a whole lotta work which sucks because i really need the money. i hate sleeping all the time and i hate that im getting annoyed with all the people in my school. i cant wait till the new class comes in feb 13 hopefully there are a lot of nice new people.icky valentines day is coming up and im not so excited because everyone knows what happened last valentines day. yes i am with the most amazing guy i have ever met but id rather celebrate it like i did last year...with my best friends.i know ray is gonna do something amazing because hes just the biggest sweet heart. lately everything has been perfect. he stopped drinking and i totally didnt expect that since he was an alcoholic. he is the best thing that has happened to me and i absolutely mean that. i wish everyone could experience the way that i feel. tomorrow i get to hang out with samantha since its been over a week since i have seen her gorgeous face. shitty i missed TMSD at the metro on saturday because i was babysitting. i hope they did good. comment

[21 Jan 2006|02:07pm] [ mood | excited ] not a whole lot has been going on. everyday is the same either i get outta school and come home and lay around or i go to school and go to work. School has never been so fun in my entire life. one day we were on lunch and four of us were trying to figure out how we all get along because theres the gay one claudio, the white ghetto bitch maryann, the stuck up bitch jessica, and as claudio would say the punk one would be me. my teacher is super awesome and everyone usually gets a long pretty well. im really glad i chose going to cosmetology school. we had our ethnic hair competition on friday it was fun but i didnt do too well. i got 3rd but i guess its better then last right? last weekend was pretty shitty because me and ray faught a lot but its only because he was upset that his friend died. totally understandable. this week was pretty amazing and today we have a dinner and a movie date. Hes going to be meeting some more of my family tomorrow because hes coming with me to mias birthday party. i cant believe shes 3 already. just figured i would update this thing because i havent in a long while. comment

[28 Dec 2005|10:59am] Yesturday i went shopping. got a bunch of black and white clothes for school. I start school in 6 days. kind of exciting and i have orientation tomorrow. after orientation i think i am going to hang out with rachel but im not quite sure yet. Sucky cuz i have to go out to dinner with nicole and ray on friday and theya re going to get sushi and i hate sushi which means im going to do something i hate instead of something i love (tmsd and the audition) unless they hurry and i get there which would be rad. Saturday s going to be awesome hopefully. samanthas new years eve party. i got my out fit together for that. im quite excited.Ray got me tiffanys for christmas. that boy is amazing. im getting my nose pierced for christmas from rachel. im kinda scared for that. ahh yes the rest of this week shall be awesome i hope since i start a full year of school in 6 days. gotta go watch empire records. heck yes. comment

[13 Dec 2005|10:58am] [ mood | happy ] life is still just peachy. i love evrything about it. today i have to work then me and ray are going to go to adddison so he can try baccis and meet my dad then i have to tone samanthas hair....then we are going to watch 40 year old virgin which i bought him today. yay. im really excited. i think me and ray might get a puppy together. a miniture pincher. female. black. im really excited. actually hes buying it and keeping it at my house. im so happy every one likes him. hes an amazing person and really makes me happy. ive never had so much fun with a guy before. we just goof around constantly but thats what is so great about him. we constantly laugh. on saturday i did everyones hair. iot was awesome just being able to hang out with everyone and do their hair. i hope everyone liked it tho. im really excited to start school. and finish COD 2 days of finals. heck yes. haha crazy shit i met these 2 boys in florida about 10 years ago and ran into then about 8 years ago and havent seen them since but wierdly ill be hanging out with them in about week. my sister comes home in about 12 days we calculated today. shes super excited to meet ray. ahh this boy makes my heart melt. noone else compares. it was awesome seeing sara. shes so gorgeous. next kelly comes home and it will be awesome. new years will be fun. cant wait. gotta get ready for work <3 comment

[03 Dec 2005|10:37am] [ mood | excited ] I have met the most amazing person. We have sucha great time together. We constantkly laugh and smile. I havent known him long but i feel like weve known eachother for years. WE tell everything to eachother. WE are completely honest with eachother. We dont hide anything. All of the people that have met him instantly like him. Theres only one person he has yet to meet and that will come soon because she is one of the most important people in my life. Every girl makes a list of what her dream guy is and wierdly he is everything i have listed. its kind of scary how well me and him get along. I love that the fact that we can just lay around and watch movies and cuddle. To him its not all about sex. hell do anything to make me happy. we act like complete goofball when we are with eachother. he says the perfect things. and has these bright blue eyes with this gorgeous black hair. he dresses adorable. hes tall and skinny. he wears glasses. hes cute. hes funny. hes fun. hes honest. hes the sweetest person ever (along with nick haha). hes a great person. he'll do anything to help anyone. I love the fact that one minute he will listen to rap then put on marilyn manson. hes a goofball. i can list everything i like about him and the list will go on forever. i just havent been this happy since christo. now christo is out and he is just a memory because Ray is better then that. hes everything to me. I really like him and im not gonna mess this one up. Sorry that this was a gooey and corny but its all soo true. Today is ashley and rachel day. i havent hung out with her in forever. im going to go to her house and see her beautiful baby niece. then we are going christmas shopping. then meeting up with Ray. Then he wants to go down town and walk around. then go to his friends house and cook dinner. then im not sure. but im really excited for today. I start cosmetology school in excatly a month today and im toatlly excited. Casey leaves for Iraq tomorrow and i completely feel bad for my sister. My sister comes home christmas eve and i cant wait to see her. i miss her soo much. so basically thats all thats new with me these days. 2 comment

[10 Nov 2005|10:15am] [ music | from autumn to ashes ] Today is he first day in 4 weeks i have had time to clean my room and oo laundry..even tho its not a lot of time. its still kinda nice to sit around and sdo nothing for once. i get paid today which is nice bbut it sucks that all the money goes towards my bills... oh well. this weekend is gonna be fun. well i dont know about friday abut saturday will be. saturday me adn betty are going to columbia college then going to visit mey friend chris and stay he night there. i havent seen chris in about 3 years so itll be nice. thats all i really have planned. sam betty and kelly are going to go see the audition ad i wish i could go but of course i have fucking work...nothing new though. ive been working every day for the past 4 weeks and then some. sucky sucky but what can you do. i need the money anyways. back to cleaning yo. comment

[02 Nov 2005|09:32pm] [ mood | content ] soo staring jan. 3rd i will be going to empire beauty in arlington heights. brand new school. im kind of psyched. i need something new in my life.i guess cosmo school is it. im really excited about it though and soo is my sister. i sometimes wonder...if i should move to texas. i think i would be completely miserable but then again it could be total opposite. i would miss everyone. its not like im moving cuz i started paying for school. i hope im happy with my decision. i guess we will find out...right? yeah. i have 2 4 page papers to write anda whole book to read and a bunch of cosmo school papers to fill out by friday. i hate being busy. this weekend will be fun tho i hope. the hush friday and the audition on saturday. hm...i wonder. comment

[24 Oct 2005|09:39pm] [ mood | sleepy ] Hm...all of a sudden i decided that im dropping outta school to go to beauty school. sounds better then cosmetology school. no one knew about it...it was kind of sper of the moment type deal. im really excited about it. lately i have no boy. which is my fault. theres this one boy that is constantly in my head. more now then before. hes a super cool dood and ive always had a little secret crush on him and only sam has known about it...i kind of like it that way. yeah. i hate that i like him cuz i know that if i told him it would totally suck. soo its better that he doesnt know. i dyed jessies hair yesturday and i super jealous cuz i love it. oh well. i dyed my hair again its all black now...kinda boring but oh well. i want this week to be over well i want saturday to come cuz i love being around ronnie and nick and everyone. and i know that we are all gonna be hanging out. especially since i never go out anymore cuzall i do is work go to school and sleep. haha yeah all this stuff is random...i dont have much to say. everything is going pretty ok and im ehh...satisfied with life. cant complain and nothing is going terribly wrong. rachels sister had her baby yesturday. i cant wait to see her on saturday. itll be fun. saturday is going to be a busy day..i cant wait. yeah. me and sammy are going to a haunted hosue tomorrow cuz we are soo cool. anyone wanna come with? call my phone <3 comment

[11 Oct 2005|07:53pm] Hm....so latelyhad been peachy and ive been superly tired lately. it kinda sucks. i met a super cool boy whom i like to kiss. im happy with that. schools going okay...i think i might drop out and go to cosmetology school next semester. i got my tattoo which is super cool and im getting another one soon. and the mid-summer derby has a show on saturday which im totally stoked about. i work too much...or when im not at work im sleeping....that all my days consist of...sleep and school, sleep and work, or school and work. fun times...sleepy time 1 comment

[29 Sep 2005|01:03pm] [ mood | peaceful ] Everything is gone again. im kinda glad and relieved. ive learned my lesson. good. im done. its done. its better. it was kinda nice at first then i dunno wasnt that great. theres a better person out there. im happy. yup. just thought id let everyone know comment

[28 Sep 2005|02:32pm] [ music | panic! at the disco ] This weekend is going to be such an amazing weekend. Friday...go to shitty school not much fun at all then after meet up with the love of my life (sam) and everyone else hop on the train and go seee MOTIONCITYSOUNDTRACK. PANIC!ATTHEDISCO. STARTINGLINE. Fall Out Boy. and hopefully not get molested by a black bum. Then saturday me and my love (sam) are gonna get some alcohol hop on the train and go to wheaton grand and see THEAUDITION. then party after haha me and sam party hard...anyone wanna join our fun saturday? im totally psyched. Sunday im not sure what gonna happen...im supposed to go out with my friend Alex. we'll see. then the weekend ends...who invented school cuz i think ever day should be a day to have fun...if only there was that much to do. god i cant wait for this weeeeeekend. Soo anyone wanna help me out on something? should i let go of something soo special to me? should i just forget about the past and everything thats going on now and what could be in the future? its soo hard and confusing...so many people bring up different points which makes it harder for me. i just dont know anymore. is it possible to wish for something and have it come true? or how about a miracle? anyything? i guess we will find out huh? it sucks that only a select people know about what im talking about, but it has to be that way or im a dead man. lol just kidding. its not that big of a deal geez! FuN StufF comment

[25 Sep 2005|01:51pm] [ mood | blah ] My weekend was ok...friday i had school and work then went to dans house and hung out there. i saw kevin. it was kinda wierd, but it was nice seeing hime. i had fun. then saturday i worked then hung out with dan and jaymee. we went to the mall then went back to dans then dick came by. it was awesome seeing dick. i was soo happy to see him. it was strange at first but then we went out side and talked and faught. it was fun just seeing old people. then i picked sam up and dropped her off at the park and went home. nothing special. today is my dads birthday and yeah nothing special again today except write a 4 page paper. ICK! today is a gloomy day. i think its the weather thats making me sad today. i dunno? but yeah gotta get reading my stupid book soo i can write that stupid paper. YES! comment

[22 Sep 2005|12:22am] [ mood | loved ] school was boring as hell, but it was fun i guess. i got a COD library card and i was sooo excited lol. wierd i know. then work went by super fast. it was amazing i loved it. plus i work with sara and shes such a sweetheart. then i went to sams. we had fun just talking and doing absolutely nothing...i like days like that...plus we talked and i decided im the type of girl that i dispise. like i run back to someone i thought i would hate but once they come back i act like nothing happen. oh well. me and sam are soo cool. i broke her camera and i thought she would be soo mad at me. but she wasnt and like i was soo happy she wasnt. thats what best friends are for right. i gonna buy her a new one...DUH! yup my day was awesome! i loved it. 2 comment

[20 Sep 2005|08:52pm] [ mood | confused ] www.myspace.com/samash4life me and sam a have myspace together....i bet you wish you could be as cool as us! today was fun...i work up early cuz i couldnt sleep. yesturday i slept soo much....soo i went to bed later then usual i kept waking up through out the night and i woke up super early. i went to the denist...gay my mouth was numb for hours. i hate that feeling plus i was on the phone trying to talk...i felt bad for the person. its ok tho...they like it. thenn i sat at home waiting for sam to wake up and get ready...then me sam and erica went to tower and to baccis. it was funny as hell i love the people there. then fel came and picked up me and sam...we went to dairy queen then arlens...now im home and about to watch the real world! peace comment

[18 Sep 2005|01:03pm] Soo more shit going on in ashleys life then expected. i got asked out last night...something i didnt want to happen. i havent said anything to the person yet because im not sure if i like him plus theres someone else i care about and its just crazy stuff. sooo i was reading my horoscope last night and its crazy cuz it was soo close to being right...and it made me think a lot. couldnt sleep last night i have soo much to think about. thanks dan for helping me try to figure stuff out. im glad me and dan talk again...he such a good character. and hes soo happy with jaymee its cute. hm... i just really need to talk to this one person. oh well. haha im i confusing anyone with my journals? comment

[16 Sep 2005|12:10am] Yeah soo i got through my 13 hour day at work... it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be...it went by very fast thank god. it felt likeiwas there for 2 hours no joke...one more day of bullshit (work and school) then i have 2 days off! thank you very much.he said hed call me today and he didnt...what a jerk! lol oh well i dont care...tomorrow = psych test...im screwed...oh well. my phone bill was rediculouly high because of text messages soo no more texting me people...PLEASE! unless its needed. i cant stop listening to the audition cd. it amazing...i absolutely love it. it comes out september 20th so i erge you to get it! god im not going to bed tonight. im tired...i hate that i air dry my hair lol thats the only reason im awake. boo. alrighty buhbye lovers comment

[15 Sep 2005|02:06pm] [ mood | crazy ] This has been the most confusing...the most busy...the most frusrating week ive had in a long timeee.i wish i could tell you guys whats been going on but....some people like to read my livejournal soo i can only write about select things.i guess the important people know. at times i amvery happy and other times i get sad about it. but its mostly all happy. ive been working a lot... im on my break right now. ive been very tired lately... oh well. and its all someones fault...what a poohead right? yeah well im going to go eat and sleep before i have to go back <3 2 comment

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